By The Way

And all I needed was somebody to listen to me

Someone who would wait for me

Anybody to just stop what they had to do

By the way, didn't you notice me?

I showed all the signs

Hiding my marks

Deep scary depression

By the way, didn't you notice me?

I tried to call you last night

You never picked up the phone

Bottling up all my aggressions today

By the way, didn't you notice me?

Not caring where I go

Not caring what I do

Not caring how I try

By the way, didn't you notice me?

I went shopping tomorrow

I bought something to match my personality

Deep Empty Angry Deadly

By the way, didn't you notice me?

All I wanted was a hello

All I ever got was nothing

I write this so you can forget me

By the way, didn't you notice me

I find myself looking in the gun's direction

Late mornings and early nights

Crowd my eyes with bright white

By the way, didn't you notice me?

The room is dark and spinning

Things are spiraling out of control!

I paint the walls......

By the way, didn't you notice me?

I wrote this because I heard that somebody I never knew committed suicide at my school a few days ago. I was thinking of not even posting this message but I feel it's calming for me to write this out.

I've seen the person around and I never really talked to him but I never thought he'd do that. I of all people should know the signs. Things are just tragic. Don't worry, I won't get depressed about death like I used to for weeks. It's like you see a person one day and then the next they are dead and you never saw it coming until it's too late.

In other news, my girlfriend is gone for awhile. I plan on trashing everything including myself and just go crazy everyday like I'm living life to the fullest with no attachments.