Tuesday, June 21, 2005

I'm outta here.....

I'm leaving you guys for a few weeks. The darkness shall return someday or perhaps this might be my last post? I might actually kill myself.....wish me luck. peace and good riddance.


Life is fucked over. My life is fucked over. What's the point of going to your lives of work. You work, you go home you work you go home until eventually you die. Why wait until you die! Let's get life over with. Yeah, I think i'll hang myself. I'm going to kill myself before I go to work!



Monday, June 20, 2005

When good cats go BAD


Kitty, Kitty, Kitty, Kitty

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Beat It!

Michael Jackson is free. Lock your doors and stay away from Neverland, for it will be the end of all your pleasent dreams.



Maybe the first time you are charged with it, then its quite possible that it could've been made up. But for it to happen again and again and again.



Frame my ass! Frame my ass and put it on your wall so you can stare at my ass all fucking day. But I couldn't see Jackson in jail anyways. They would **** him so bad that he would be *******************! It would give to meaning to "Remember the Time". So kids run. RUN! You little BASTARDS, RUN!

I believe the jury was scared shitless. They would have to watch their backs if they gave a guilty verdict. His fans would destroy them.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

You've Been Warned!

The My Favorite Suicide post below turned out a little more graphic than I expected. If you are turned off by my thoughts you can go to THIS SITE instead.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

My Favorite Suicide

Thinking back on the days of my life and seeing nothing but pure evil and hell. I go shopping for razor blades and dream of a happier time. I no longer fear the dark angel that has been haunting my dreams. I see her as my reward for a job badly done. I didn't mean to live, honest! Drugs and needles seem to be the only answer. Whichever way brings it to an end the fastest.

Just one day I wish I wouldn't wake up. Just one day I wish someone will shoot me. Just one day I wish this nightmare called life would crumble. I want you to kill me. Drug me, hurt me, take it all away.

Walking in circles trying to comprehend existence. I dream that life is over. As I practice cutting my wrists over the rusty sink in the dark room, I have a flashback. It's a flashback of a past that I wished I had. It's bright and happy, but as I come back to reality, the room is dark and sad. Blood gushes into the sink as I drop the blades.

Over the time of attempted suicides, I learned how to recover myself. I bandage myself up and go to bed hoping that this is the night.

It's a sunny day today. I feel happier on cloudy days. The way the sun tries to break free of overcast skies reminds me of my sanity. I want my death to be slow and painless. I want to see my life fade away in front of me.

Listening to "Hurt" -- The Nine Inch Nails version puts me in the mood. "I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel, I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real...".

I look in the broken mirror and see myself scarred and rugged. I broke the mirror a few months earlier when I bashed my head on it. Does anybody care? Is anybody listening? No more! Do you see me? Can you help me? No more!

All these years knowing my friends are strangers and my parents are failures. I know what must be done to myself. Finding the gun hidden underneath "linens and things" when I was younger, I know that is the answer.

As I stick the gun in my mouth I realize...

...Suicide is not the answer. The joy of pain gives me more pleasure.

Dance Fat Boy Dance!

Sorry, fat boy had a massive heart attack and died. I believe this would be his replacement.

Friday, June 10, 2005

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Friday, June 03, 2005

You Sick Fucking Bastard--WORDS OF HATE

hate - to feel hostility or animosity toward.

DIRTY DIRTY BOY

SHIT, DAMN, FUCK, CUNT, DICK, JAP, FAGGOT, NIGGER, ASS, CRACKER, MOTHERFUCKER, SPICK, JIZZ TRAP, WHORE, CHICKENHEAD, CRACKHEAD, FAIRY, MONKEY, YOU SHIT STAIN, IMMIGRANT, DIKE, ABORTED FETUS, RETARD, OLD, FAT, RAPIST, PEDOPHILE, GREASE MONKEY, MEXICAN, WHITE, MIDDLE CLASS, UPPER CLASS, RICH, POOR, HOMELESS, BEGGER, TOUCHED, ACCIDENT, MOLESTED, HURT, BANNED, EVIL, SPAWN OF EVIL, HAG, BITCH, STD'S, INCEST, RUNAWAY, MURDERED, HELD HOSTAGE, BROKEN, RIPPED APART, RIPPED INTO, DEATH, SUICIDE, FIRE, ICE, EXPLOSION, IRISH BASTARD, SMALL TITTIES, BIG TITTIES, NO TITTIES, HARD TITTIES, SOFT TITTIES, love,SLICED, HUNG, SHOT, HEART BROKEN, LOSER, HANDICAPPED, SPIT ON, SPIT AT, KICKED, STABBED, DUMB, RAT, HOMELESS KID, CIGAR BURNS, NEEDLES, AMPUTATE, SLUGGED, JUMPED, MONGUL, GREEK BASTARD, NIGHTMARES, PRISON, ETERNITY, WHIPPED, PUSHED, DUMPED, FIRED, ALCOHOLIC, DRUG USER, DRUG ABUSER, DEPENDENT, BURNED, HATE, ABUSED, VIOLENCE, BASHING, HEARTLESS, CONVICTION, DEATH PENALTY, CARNAGE, MURDER, BANG, POT, REEFA, SLAVE, ROBBER, JACKASS, TAR BABY, BUCKTOOTH, BRACEFACE, DRUGGED, RUDE AWAKENING, HOBO, HE'S GOTTA GUN, BLOOD, DARKNESS, PORN, CRASH, CANCER, RED BLOOD, PHONICS, AIDS, PUSSY, PIMP, FIRED, COCK SUCKER, LATCHKEY KID, REDNECK, NERD, DECAPITATED, BLOW ME, TRANNY, BED-WETTER, JACKASS......